“Well, I wasn’t pining away. I was happy
playing my violin, but after awhile I felt I needed
to branch out, because being an accompanist wasn’t
doing it for me completely anymore. So, I learned how
to play guitar, which meant I could start writing songs,
because you can’t write songs on a violin, because
it’s essentially like the voice, a one-note melodic
instrument. Then I started doing shows, to force myself
to finish songs. It’s easy to start songs; it’s
more difficult trying to finish them.”
So, it’s been a gradual process. Throughout
the evolution, honesty has been the goal. “There’s
no point in trying to sound like Billie Holliday or
Sarah Vaughan. I mean, there’s an art to a pose,
and some people do it very well, but I wanted it to
come from inside me. That was scary: would there be
anything there? So I had to learn to be vulnerable,
emotive in front of other people. It was amazing.”
She had sung as a child, but when puberty hit she
became self-conscious and stopped singing. Which is
pretty strange, when you think what an amazing voice
she has. But Antony and Rufus were very supportive.
Perhaps the key, though, is growing confidence. As she
puts it, in therapy-speak: “I like me now.”
She has described her music as a fusion of soul and
punk, “Because in both you’re saying what
you mean without fear of consequence. One is associated
with anger, the other with love. But both are from the
heart. Punk was a big influence on me, but I don’t
listen to it much anymore. Soul is my favourite type
of music, even though I’m not from a southern,
churchy background.”
So no problem with the term Blue Eyed Soul? “None.
Some of those albums are my favourite ever – like
Bowie’s Young Americans.” The phrase does,
after all, encompass Dusty Springfield, and Joan has
been called the Dusty of the indie generation. “Oh,
she’s the greatest.”
And that name? “I was a fan of Angie Dickenson
in the TV series Policewoman when I was a kid. It was
more real, and gritty, than Charlie’s Angels.
She was a woman alone. Later, I used to dye my hair
blonde, and a friend of mine said to me, ‘You’re
channelling Angie’.”
She has fond memories of Crawdaddy, where last July
she received a birthday cake she shared with the audience,
so try to catch her at the bigger venue next door.
First published in Magill, April 2007